What if you already have everything you need?

I am a person who craves comfort. I am overjoyed that yoga pants are considered an acceptable fashion choice in the time I live in. Because to be frank, I don't enjoy being uncomfortable. I don't understand people that like to live in jeans. Don't the waistbands bother you? The buttons always seem to rub me in just the wrong place and the fabric. ugh so hot. Before yoga pants made their glow up I wore cargo pants.  I had an impossibly comfortable pair in a silky material that made me feel like I was wearing pj's all day.  Come to think of I wonder what happened to those... A friend of mine who is always fashionable was teasing me about how she remembers my former fashion choices and I honestly didn't know I should have been embarrassed about my handy woman chic past. Who knew moderately baggy pants with pockets at your knees could be considered questionable styling in the early aughts. 

By the same token my life choices are primarily driven by my comfort level. For example. I don't like talking to people I don't know. I feel an intense level of social anxiety when I meet new people. I do not feel witty and intelligent unless I have known you and spoken to you on several occasions. Because of this I have a reputation for being a very reserved/quiet person. Some of you know me well enough to laugh at that. I am pretty reserved honestly. I like to observe and make an informed decision about what I'm going to say. I've realized more and more that God does speak to me pretty clearly and more often than not it's through listening to situations fully before speaking up that he does give me the words to say. But I can also talk when I get going or feel strongly about something. 

That said God has been telling me to write. He has used people and situations and His still small voice. I don't really want to. I've gotten very comfortable holding onto what God is telling me and what I'm feeling and going through. But apparently I have to get out of my comfort zone on this. I am insecure. I don't feel like I have anything big enough to share about. I don't feel like I'm educated enough to teach. What if I misspell something or use poor grammar and you judge me because of it. What if people read it and don't like what I say? What if I don't have anything I need? 

What if I already have everything I need? Because I know that I do. My comfort seeking can't hold me back from doing what God wants me to do. I guess that's one thing I have learned. Whatever I do He insists. He's patient. He's kind. He doesn't force me to do anything. But he persists. 

So to borrow from 2 Corinthians if I boast it is not about my strength but about my weakness.

“My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me. 2 Corinthians 12:9 (not going to lie I wanted to post the whole chapter but I'll just leave it here. 

So what do you need to be doing? What if you already have everything you need to start? What is holding you back? Maybe you just need to put on some yoga pants and get to work?